Getting F'd in 1 million words or less

I’ve struggled more with this project than any other because of the fact that the bases for my entire project is off of one word. I should have known that when both of my options began with the letter F that, it was also the position I was in when it came to this project [Figuratively I was “F’d”].

I immediately decided against fold because I don’t even fold my clothes so the thought of folding anything for a grade was by no means interesting. I also picture folds to be neat, another thing which I’m not by any means.
So Flow is the winner, and ALL I could think of was that annoying girl Flo from all those insurance commercials. Then all I could think about was flow, like a how a great rapper has flow…also not acceptable. [I’m very one track minded] Then I decided to think outside the box…and there is where I think I’m going to get F’d…

You see “Flow” in psychology refers to “the mental state of operation in which a person in an activity is fully immersed in a feeling of energized focus, full involvement, and success in the process of the activity” well technically a mental state isn’t an action but to be in a flow state would require mental action and I thought so much about that applies to me in this class. I live in a house with 40 girls so distractions are easier to come by, than well the odds of everyone complaining about not being able to find “prince charming.” The point is I have to specifically wait for times when I know everyone is asleep, aka 4am when every normal creature is fast asleep in bed. No not me. I have to be the only one in the room, I have to have music specific to the task at hand and although I do bounce around when working on these projects

There are 10 factors associated with a state of flow some of which apply to me are
1. A loss of the feeling of self-consciousness – did I “blackout” and create this….i think so
2. A lack of awareness of bodily needs – which explains why I’m awake at 4am on a Tuesday morning when I feel like I’m swallowing knives. [pretty sure that isn’t normal]
3. Absorption into the activity, narrowing of the focus of awareness down to the activity itself - for most of the project I forgot that there was another girl in the dining room studying by me, I also did not respond to the million text messages from my mother asking me if I’m going to go to the doctor in the morning.

The point is when I’m doing these projects in my mind these is so much going on in my head, and the ideas flow past me, the easiest way to describe it is like the tornado in the Wizard of Oz … I of course relate to the wicked witch pedaling on her bike in the midst of the tornado as objects fly past her…the wicked witch is in a flow state because regardless of everything going on around her she is still fully focused on getting Dorothy and “her little dog too.”



All the blurry objects on the outside of the laptop are websites that ultimately waste my time and distract me, and my screen is clean in the middle because it’s a clean background and I’m focused on the task at hand

The quote is
“Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, and clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery – celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “it’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take then to.”

…. I’m Flowing….I’m in a state of flow at my laptop which oddly enough I took for granted until my roommates crashed and she literally almost freaked out in the middle of the apple store.. These are everyday objects that have such an impact on our lives, moods, and emotions that it is a little frightening because we’ve gotten to a point where our love for objects replaces our love for mankind, and people.

I promise I’m never on drugs of any kind when I write these, this is literally how my mind works as embarrassing as it is for me to admit that

Super Duper

Two things’ came to my mind when I heard about this project, the first was obviously Dane Cook's jokes about super powers which I thought about including a link to but decided against that [so watch at your own risk], the other obviously was Andy Warhol. I don't know what it is about super powers and comic strips that immediately make me think of him, I think it's because every time I look at comics I can see the little dots of color used to make each image and if that doesn't scream Warhol I don't know what does, other than someone actually screaming “WARHOL.”

I then decided to take the obvious route and go with neither of the first two images I thought of, there was a brief idea of a PTS'ing super power [PTS = Pretend to Sleep...It's what you do at bars to get people you don't want to talk to, to go away] I then decided that it would be hard to portray that in an image. I then began thinking about situations I find myself in that I secretly wish I had an escape route for, and I realized these situations are all normally the same event just different places and different faces....

The Moral of this rambling is that, if I could have a super power I would hope that I could be invisible. You know, so that if a guy comes up to hit on me at the bar and the first thing he asks me is "do you want to dance?" I can just turn myself invisible and I won't have to fumble for an excuse/the truth which is I really don't like to dance, and I'm not sure why I'm even at the "club" in the first place. And I have no intention of getting to know this so called stranger because my plan is to order food and end up safely in my own bed at the end of the night.
The question is then, what does this say about me? Am I afraid of talking to guys? Check. Really Awkward? Check. Does the ‘situation’ give me nightmares? Double Check.

And this is where the “why did you do what you did…” question becomes really hard to answer…maybe I picked the conga line because as fun as they are, I think when you are watching them, they just look so awkward that you don’t want to stand and watch, so you jump in. I just wanted this to be a fun photo, I’m not sure I’m taking any stands about social norms, or how I feel pressured to go to places I don’t find all that interesting because that’s what all my friends are doing.

If I were a completely unbiased third party opinion and I was asked to critique this work I would laugh at it, not because it is funny, but because it doesn’t even look realistic. The lights from the disco are flat behind the people in the image and the cropping around the party goers kind of sucks. Also all 3 images are of varying qualities, the “situation” appears to be the main subject when he shouldn’t be because the gorgeous blonde fading in the background should stick out more than everyone else, because it should be obvious that she is fading…and not that this is a photo of the situation with a fading girl in the background behind him, with a conga line behind her. I’m not happy with anything because I know tomorrow in class everyone else’s things will be way cooler than mine and I’m the one who started the class saying I liked graphic design. I take it back after all these assignments…because my grandpa Photoshop’s better images on our Christmas cards.
And that is my completely disorganized but completely accurate statement about my thought process during this assignment. I also learned my hair looks flat when I go out. Score for me.

Items for sale

This Project was hard for me because I felt like I was leaving my diary open for people.

The Journey

I roll out of bed in the mornings, and pop in the same playlist every day. Its starts off with Bobby Brown’s “I feel good.” It is at that point that I say to myself “Today will be a good day” and I head out the door. The route I take is never the same, sometimes I walk through Wexner, and the oval...other times I take 17th all the way down.
My issue with this assignment is that I don’t consider anything I’ve ever made art. I love making flyers and print art yet nothing I’ve done is artistic. This is why this was so hard for me to do. To me my ideas always seem commonplace, my ideas are nothing but ordinary. So my approach was more about the mental process of the journey to class. My mind is a jumble like the photo, and yet I know I have a clear ending. Sometimes I feel as if I’ve only blinked and arrived to class. My mind is elsewhere yet my physical body is going through the steps of walking to class. This project was really interesting to me though, I feel as though what I’ve created doesn’t say anything about me. It doesn’t have a theme, or a point I’m trying to prove. I think to me this says self discovery, this is about me trying to figure out what where exactly it is I am when I’m walking to class.

I also feel like my blog entry is a mirror image of what I’ve created because I’m pretty sure neither make sense to anyone else.

Post One ...what fun..

My Name is Lindsey Beggin and that is what I look like...

I'm the funniest person I know. I come from a big family and a small town. I do everything at the last minute and I'm a hard core perfectionist, which is why I procrastinate in the first place. I'm a junior who is studying fashion and retail yet I'm a closet computer nerd. If I could do it all over again, or go to college for the rest of my life, I would have picked a computer science and engineering major and had I been more interested in drawing I would have chosen Graphic Design. But oh well...
Also I missed the first day of class because I thought it started at 8:30am and not 9:30 and figured since no one was there and the lights were off that class was cancelled and I just missed the e-mail. Good thing only one person will read this because it would be pretty embarrassing if everyone knew that.

My Top 5 lists includes [but is not limited to]:
1. Favorite Condiment: Franks Red Hot ... Which goes on anything and everything
2. Favorite Food Group: Fried Foods
3. Favorite time of the day: Nap time
4. Favorite Book of the Moment: An Object of Beauty
5. Biggest Fear: Silence