Narrative Pre Blog: What was I thinking?

So naturally, because my brain operates in such a calm or organized manner, when I first started thinking about this project my mind actually drew a blank. I mean that in the sense that when given such a broad topic as anything it is really hard for me to just pick something and run with it. Most of this is a result of commitment issues i have because what if I start "running" with some idea and it actually sucks and there isn't anything I can do about it because my mind is already locked to this shitty narrative i picked.
And oddly enough I think this is the point where I realized that I may be on to something....Ok, so, this is how I see it in my mind. Life is a canvas, and we are all colors and we can choose to uses as many colors as possible or we can chose to paint with the same ones, a.k.a the same people. Variety is the spice of life, but there are people who don't like food to be spicy so the world is full of all kinds of fools.
What I keep thinking about now is those splatter paint [yes I know they have a proper name] photos they use to decide if people are crazy or not...I mean I could be wrong but isn't the main point of those photos not actually the image but what the viewer sees in them? I mean is that then essentially then how our lives look. I mean that's why people came up with the quote "beauty is in the eye of the beholder?" I mean I could love something my friends hate, and beauty/taste/style are all relative statements.
I'm not sure if there is a statement that this project will make, I mean I would love for my work to stand for something, but I mean, cameras freak me out, and I'm using gimp because I can only be creative at the weirdest times. [in a scientific study it was proven that the right side of my brain only operates between the hours of 2am and 4am]
To some this up, I want my narrative to say something about beauty, or something similar, or whatever. the point is I want people to understand that the main reason i'm doing this is to get people to think about what decides what [what makes a shirt beautiful and not ugly] [what makes a work of art great? a fancy name?]. Why does my brain react this way. I mean context plays such a huge factor, there is a huge difference between how we look at pregnant married women, and pregnant girls in high-school.
..... The issue is I'm not really sure how I'm going to be able to do this. Actually I'm 100% not sure about how I'm going to go about this.